Oh, these goodbyes are killing me... :(

Finally - summer is here, yay! Holidays! Sun! Nice weather!

Well, thats what I would usually say and think. Usually I would count down the days to get out of school. Usually I would be happy to have 3 months of holidays instead of 2. Usually I would see all my classmates after 2 months. Usually...
The problem is, that an exchange year is totally unusual thing! Therefore I prayed for the school to never end. Therefore I'm unhappy that summer holidays is already here. Therefore I'm sad - because i won't see my last-year classmates after 2 months. Most of them I may never see again...
Yea, that's just it. My echange student story is about to end. So soon. Too soon.

There is one thing I really hate about echange year - it gives you the opportunity to meet amazing people, best friends and maybe even love... just to steal it all in such a short time, with almost no chance to meet some of those people ever again. Well, steal... I would use another word which would fit more, but I don't know if there is some - it's like being robbed in a very rough way; like if they took you something, which has just made you the happiest person ever. It tears your heart to small pieces, some of which can never be found again. Maybe it sounds a little bit exaggerated, but I can tell you I have never been suffering emotionally as much as now.
Exchange year unroots you, then put into a new surrounding and, just when you manage to take a root and start to grow again, it unroots you again to put you back to the place you came from, to that same hole where your old roots used to be although now you have the new so nicely shaped ones. Isn't that cruel???!!!!!
So, dear exchange year: I HATE YOU - for making me taste the feeling of total happiness and uniqueness, strongest relationships and sweetest love... But, on the other hand, I will always LOVE you for showing me this.

It's sometimes hard, painful. It's bittersweet experience. But be sure that the taste that reminds is simply the best one you have ever tasted.

Thanks to everybody who was with me this year, to my family and host family for giving me the opportunity to  be an exchange student. Because that's the best and the most chastening experience you can have.

Thank you! =)